You are surfing posts written in August, 2008
I wish I learned about blogging back in my high school days, I could have saved up a lot of my thoughts, ideas and dreams (literal dreams), and it could have been fun to read up about my inexperienced self.
I remember having a notebook where I list down all the dreams that I can remember when I wake up. I was really excited to write down everything that I could remember, dreams that are funny and imaginative, others scary, but what I always love to dream about is flying~! I’ve had countless dreams about that (even now I still dream about it from time to time). The feeling is simply amazing.
The real world however is a different story – it’s passing by so fast. Mostly due to me living in this safe life cycle. I don’t think there is anything noteworthy with what I’m currently doing. Maybe I’m just looking at it from a wrong perspective, but everything is just the same everyday. I don’t want to be a fool chasing after greener pasture that may not be there, but I can’t just live my life knowing that I didn’t try to do something special, something new.
I hope next time I have something fresh to write about… writing about the past is getting boring (“,)
When I was younger, I was very curious as to what I will become, probably due to boredom – how time sluggishly passes by. Being a fan of sci-fi / anime I’d do weird things… Like closing my eyes then imagining that when I open them – I’m already 10+ years older. I can even clearly recall myself doing this in my double deck bed after I’m bored playing with my toys.
Now that I am where I imagined myself to be, I am both amazed and disappointed. I am disappointed at all the opportunities lost, and the wrong choices that I could have corrected. And amazed at what I’ve become, the people that have become a part of me, and some of the dreams that I have accomplished. I also find that as we grow wiser – time flies faster.
At quarter life, there may still be more years waiting for me – but now I’m afraid to close my eyes and imagine the future – cause I know how true and fast the future can be. Maybe I should heed Oogway’s wise words: “Yesterday is history, Tomorrow is a mystery and Today is a gift, that is why we call it The Present.” Focus on the present, and make the moments memorable, think of new things to do (i.e. blogging?) – I think that can help slow down time.
I’ve always thought of myself as someone destined for greatness, something above and beyond this cycle of life that “regular” people live in, someone that will touch and affect countless lives… Does everyone feel this way? Is this just a foolish phase that I’ve been stuck with since I was young?