Finally remembered this lonely blog… Thanks to X for reminding me .
Well at least I was preoccupied with a good thing – I’ve been very active with songwriting recently. I joined an online group of Filipino songwriters (http://songwritersph.net/forum) and have found home away from home. Everyone is talented and very passionate about music, and not just someone else’s but their very own music. They are also very helpful and give opportunities and feedback to newbies like myself.

I can’t believe that I have written some great songs and even performed the songs I wrote on stage in just a matter of 2 months. Looks like I’m finally on the right track, and have satisfied my cravings for music. I really needed a channel to pour all my musical juices . Well there is still the occasional work and other distractions, but am positive something good is coming up. So heads up…

So many things has been distracting me from accomplishing what I need to accomplish… >.< There’s work, there’s family and there’s personal entertainment… oh and yeah the all important REST. Well since my work week is almost over, I need to plan ahead for this week so I can record some new songs, and make sure that distractions are kept at bay. Arghhh….

Wow, almost forgot about this blog. Now I’m off to a fresh start. Have been saving up ideas both lyrically and musically, and am ready to show the world what I’ve got. But then something came up at work and now I’m bugged with so many things to do – and to think of. >.

Anyway, I’ll be updating my performer profile and be sending em out, and ofcourse auditions – yikes! Wish me luck.

Recently, I’m being bugged down by my red aching eyes. I need to work on a lot of things~! Darn.

Instead of being musically productive, I waste my time watching these animes:

1. Gundam 00 (currently season 2 – twin drives ~~)
2. Macross Frontier (just recently concluded… Sheryl San!!)
3. Naruto Shippuuden (full of fillers… >.<)

Having a “day job” has really worn out my creative juices… It’s not that I can’t create, I simply “cannot find the time” to be creative, or at least that is my excuse. Now that we have moved to a new cozy apartment, I guess it’s time to kick start the thinking and creating process.

Looking at the songs I’ve written, most of em were written when I was in my “single and wanting ex back” phases… it may seem silly but that is how it was, I don’t think I ever wrote anything to a girlfriend until we actually seperated.

Now, I don’t want writing songs to be too emotionally draining and I want to write about other things in life so I need to find a different source of inspiration. Sadly, I guess only by practicing to write random songs, just like I practice my guitar and singing, can I come up with some half decent songs that I eventually just throw out. Where are you oh inspiration? Inspire me in a different way please.

I have to admit though that I rarely spend a serious 100% focused time on songwriting, so maybe I’ll try that, rather than waiting for the guava to fall from it’s tree. So now is the start… I hope!

I wish I learned about blogging back in my high school days, I could have saved up a lot of my thoughts, ideas and dreams (literal dreams), and it could have been fun to read up about my inexperienced self.

I remember having a notebook where I list down all the dreams that I can remember when I wake up. I was really excited to write down everything that I could remember, dreams that are funny and imaginative, others scary, but what I always love to dream about is flying~! I’ve had countless dreams about that (even now I still dream about it from time to time). The feeling is simply amazing.

The real world however is a different story – it’s passing by so fast. Mostly due to me living in this safe life cycle. I don’t think there is anything noteworthy with what I’m currently doing. Maybe I’m just looking at it from a wrong perspective, but everything is just the same everyday. I don’t want to be a fool chasing after greener pasture that may not be there, but I can’t just live my life knowing that I didn’t try to do something special, something new.

I hope next time I have something fresh to write about… writing about the past is getting boring (“,)

When I was younger, I was very curious as to what I will become, probably due to boredom – how time sluggishly passes by. Being a fan of sci-fi / anime I’d do weird things… Like closing my eyes then imagining that when I open them – I’m already 10+ years older. I can even clearly recall myself doing this in my double deck bed after I’m bored playing with my toys.

Now that I am where I imagined myself to be, I am both amazed and disappointed. I am disappointed at all the opportunities lost, and the wrong choices that I could have corrected. And amazed at what I’ve become, the people that have become a part of me, and some of the dreams that I have accomplished. I also find that as we grow wiser – time flies faster.

At quarter life, there may still be more years waiting for me – but now I’m afraid to close my eyes and imagine the future – cause I know how true and fast the future can be. Maybe I should heed Oogway’s wise words: “Yesterday is history, Tomorrow is a mystery and Today is a gift, that is why we call it The Present.” Focus on the present, and make the moments memorable, think of new things to do (i.e. blogging?) – I think that can help slow down time.

I’ve always thought of myself as someone destined for greatness, something above and beyond this cycle of life that “regular” people live in, someone that will touch and affect countless lives… Does everyone feel this way? Is this just a foolish phase that I’ve been stuck with since I was young?

Another term for passing notes – also known as fillers to give your basic musical scales some color. As per Wikipedia – it is a note that does not belong to the prevailing key, but is still used nonetheless. A double edged sword, which if used correctly will make a great impact, otherwise will cause a big mess. Welcome to this blog that will highlight the chromatic notes of my life – small and big things that happened, both important and non important – oh and weird, crazy ideas haunting my head.