Remember Lynndie England? She was the Army Reservist pictured in the shocking 2004 photos of abuse that came out of Abu Ghraib prison in Iraq. England and others involved served jail time for the prisoner abuse scandal that rocked the world, but now, she’s on a book tour, hoping to tell her story and make a better life for herself and her 4-year-old son.

The Washington Post reports that England can’t get a job anywhere, despite sending out hundreds of resumes. She says that she’s recognized whenever she leaves the house, and that people point and whisper about her. When asked about the images taken of her in the prison, photos that include her holding a prisoner by a neck restraint, and one of her giving a thumbs-up and pointing to a naked prisoner’s genitals, she claims that she and the 10 other soldiers found guilty of misconduct were pawns. She said she was following orders from higher-ups on how to treat the prisoners, higher-ups who then let them take the fall when the photos were released. Prosecutors say otherwise, of course, and say that the prisoners in question weren’t even suspected terrorists.

England claims that she’s paid her dues and apologized for the incidents, saying that she was only in the photos for a second and that she wasn’t a vile torturer as many paint her. Her biography, Tortured: Lynndie England, Abu Ghraib and the Photographs that Shocked the World, was written by Gary Winkler, an author who admits that even he couldn’t decide whether he liked or hated England.

England appealed her conviction and will have another hearing in July. As for the court of public opinion, it remains to be seen whether she’ll be a monster or a victim in the eyes of those around her.